Oh, please don't mistake this look on my face as patience, it is actually the look of surrender. To be said to any nice older woman who might complement my "patience" as I "calmly" deal with my disruptive children.
I feel like I'm sort of letting so many things go. Gone is my weekly bathroom deep clean, and linen washing. It is now more speradic, a wipe down with a clorox wipe, a dump of bleach into the toilet. If Mikah pees all over her sheets (at least once a week) her whole bed gets washed. And I do belive I manage to get the rest of the sheets washed every other week. at least.
Nate and I have not been sleeping in our regular room. It is huge and hard to keep warm in the winter. Instead, we have been sleeping on two mattresses in the small guest room. Cozy and warm. I sleep on the actual bed and Nate on the mattress on the floor. Sometimes I let him join me for a second or two, but then banish him to his spot because my back would hurt if we slept the entire night in a twin bed. Hooray for the normal sized Master bedroom in our new house!
As I type the two yongest are on top of the kitchen table where I type. Mikah tries to close the lid on the lap top and throws the napkin basket on the floor. She has been throwing pisctacho shells on the floor for the last 10 minutes. I feel that I cannot do anything productive until she is asleep. She is off to unload cans from the cupboards.
The truth is, I could probably get something done with her awake, if I tried. It would just be so much more stressfull and take 4 times as long. I step forward 2 steps back.
I am explaining to myself that my lack of organizaion, cleanlieness, control is all due to the fact that we will be moving soon. "Once we are settled in I will be better, cleaner, more organized." I am hoping that is the reason, and that I truley have not let everything go.
On the positive side, I have not let it all go. I am a running, exercising machine. I am keeping up with my training, adding cross training, and trying to get at least 3 days of strenght training in each week. I am also tracking my eating (not perfectly) on a website that counts my calories and fat and carbs and protien for the day. I am hoping to loose a few lbs and get to my ideal racing weight. Only to dissapointment. I will be a few lbs down and then jump up again. I am more concerned with my body fat. I once or twice will have it at 20ish and then just this morning I was back up to 22.3... as if I never started to change by diet. (granted, I often go over my calories). My goal is 18 percent. Hopefully by the first week of October I will be there.
BTW- Boston Qualifing and registration is in the process of changing. And it has streessed me out too.
OK,.. So I have given the excuse of the move as my reason for being a slob...but I must add. I am taking a class on line and I'm taking a class at the community college, and I need to find a paitner, dry wall guy, carpet person. And once we move I need someone to fix the deck and update the electrical. I need to get a fence built and a garage door added, and a side door added, and I need to replace toilets, and I need to make a list..that is what I need to do.
All this and Nate is teaching another UOP class and he needs to run the surgery center...and I get streessed that he does not do enough with the house, but I should be greatfull that he puts up with me, and my stress, and although he sometimes has to work late, he never brings home his work stress with him.
OK.. the rant is over.
And we will see if I can pull it all together.
And get things taken care of.
I love a good list.
And soon, whenever I can see Nate while I'm not overly tired... I will go over it with him.
And hopefully.
Feel better.
I feel like I'm sort of letting so many things go. Gone is my weekly bathroom deep clean, and linen washing. It is now more speradic, a wipe down with a clorox wipe, a dump of bleach into the toilet. If Mikah pees all over her sheets (at least once a week) her whole bed gets washed. And I do belive I manage to get the rest of the sheets washed every other week. at least.
Nate and I have not been sleeping in our regular room. It is huge and hard to keep warm in the winter. Instead, we have been sleeping on two mattresses in the small guest room. Cozy and warm. I sleep on the actual bed and Nate on the mattress on the floor. Sometimes I let him join me for a second or two, but then banish him to his spot because my back would hurt if we slept the entire night in a twin bed. Hooray for the normal sized Master bedroom in our new house!
As I type the two yongest are on top of the kitchen table where I type. Mikah tries to close the lid on the lap top and throws the napkin basket on the floor. She has been throwing pisctacho shells on the floor for the last 10 minutes. I feel that I cannot do anything productive until she is asleep. She is off to unload cans from the cupboards.
The truth is, I could probably get something done with her awake, if I tried. It would just be so much more stressfull and take 4 times as long. I step forward 2 steps back.
I am explaining to myself that my lack of organizaion, cleanlieness, control is all due to the fact that we will be moving soon. "Once we are settled in I will be better, cleaner, more organized." I am hoping that is the reason, and that I truley have not let everything go.
On the positive side, I have not let it all go. I am a running, exercising machine. I am keeping up with my training, adding cross training, and trying to get at least 3 days of strenght training in each week. I am also tracking my eating (not perfectly) on a website that counts my calories and fat and carbs and protien for the day. I am hoping to loose a few lbs and get to my ideal racing weight. Only to dissapointment. I will be a few lbs down and then jump up again. I am more concerned with my body fat. I once or twice will have it at 20ish and then just this morning I was back up to 22.3... as if I never started to change by diet. (granted, I often go over my calories). My goal is 18 percent. Hopefully by the first week of October I will be there.
BTW- Boston Qualifing and registration is in the process of changing. And it has streessed me out too.
OK,.. So I have given the excuse of the move as my reason for being a slob...but I must add. I am taking a class on line and I'm taking a class at the community college, and I need to find a paitner, dry wall guy, carpet person. And once we move I need someone to fix the deck and update the electrical. I need to get a fence built and a garage door added, and a side door added, and I need to replace toilets, and I need to make a list..that is what I need to do.
All this and Nate is teaching another UOP class and he needs to run the surgery center...and I get streessed that he does not do enough with the house, but I should be greatfull that he puts up with me, and my stress, and although he sometimes has to work late, he never brings home his work stress with him.
OK.. the rant is over.
And we will see if I can pull it all together.
And get things taken care of.
I love a good list.
And soon, whenever I can see Nate while I'm not overly tired... I will go over it with him.
And hopefully.
Feel better.
